I am so exhausted today...I feel like I have been running a marathon, except, I don't know what I am competing for.
I know that I am needing and wanting to be creative (Kelly Rae & Ama are huge inspirations for me right now), but it has been getting a little lost in the shuffle of job craziness and boy over load. I didn't know that I would be single with a vengeance. It's hard to be creative when your mind is matters of your heart.
My heart has it's own mind, and it keeps changing itself. I am not sure what I want out of a relationship. I guess I better figure it out. I have had many beautiful experiences this year dating (yes, already!?, I know it's only February) many ups and downs, beautiful conversations, lots of kissing, hand holding, misunderstandings, arguments, lots of "go away" but more "come back!" I know, I am trying to enjoy it all, because I know I might be "tied down" again before I know it (can I get an amen from all my married folks?).
I have always thought I was strong and brave about relationships, turns out I am a complete coward! When someone is really wanted to be close to me, I run away from them like Garth from Waynes World ("ewwhhh!!"). It's hard to let someone have your heart (yes, I just got the memo on this, I know this not shocking to most of you).
I promise to not run so fast away from true love (have a happy valentine day this week!) beso- M
